Day 1- August 22, 2011:
I had the best parents in the world, the support and the love that my sister and I gotten from them are unbelievable, and now they’re just gone. Even though today was a hot day, I had more tears than sweat on my face. I didn’t think I would be ready to take care of my little sister, Lisa, now. She’s only nine years old and she’s a handful. Wow, just wow. I’m only 24 and now I’m going have to be my sister’s guardian for the time being. Mr. Parks, why must the good die young? My room is full of pictures of my parents and I. Good times. Just looking at the pictures just brings tears to my eyes and I don’t know how I’m going to get over this. Dr. Johnson told me that they both apparently died due to a major shock causing a heart attack at the same time with scars on their body and they were at home with Lisa when it all happened. That sounds weird. What happened?
I had the best parents in the world, the support and the love that my sister and I gotten from them are unbelievable, and now they’re just gone. Even though today was a hot day, I had more tears than sweat on my face. I didn’t think I would be ready to take care of my little sister, Lisa, now. She’s only nine years old and she’s a handful. Wow, just wow. I’m only 24 and now I’m going have to be my sister’s guardian for the time being. Mr. Parks, why must the good die young? My room is full of pictures of my parents and I. Good times. Just looking at the pictures just brings tears to my eyes and I don’t know how I’m going to get over this. Dr. Johnson told me that they both apparently died due to a major shock causing a heart attack at the same time with scars on their body and they were at home with Lisa when it all happened. That sounds weird. What happened?
Today, I finally got a job as a person that makes noise in an arena at Hexa Garden downtown and I wanted to tell mom and dad, but all I can say to them was I love you and have a good trip to heaven. This is the most bittersweet moment of my life.
Day 5- August 26, 2011:
After hearing this song, I already knew that this was going to be a horrible Friday. I actually wanted my ears to bleed to death because I know blood makes a better sound. My annoying little sister is the one who forced me to hear the song, and she is such a pain that anytime she’s near me, I literally feel a pain on my butt, even when I’m sitting or lying down. If she does something wrong, she always tells me, “anything that you do is your fault and you better tell mom that it was you before I do.” Oh the irony. I always give her the “what the hell” face: it’s when my eyes are squinted so tight that it looks like I’m sleeping, my nose moves up and down like a roller coaster, and my lips tremble quickly like I’m going to get caught. I can’t believe that my own little sister is my own bully. I’m really surprised that she hasn’t even noticed that her daily bedtime song hasn’t been sung to her.
Thank God for Mr. Parks. I believe that as long as I can tell everything to Mr. Parks, I know I’m going to be ok. He is the only person that understands my words and pain, that’s why I always write him a letter. Lisa should have her own Mr. Parks or Mrs. Devil. If she had one of those, she’ll probably stop getting in trouble and always force me to pick her up from school.
Thank God for Mr. Parks. I believe that as long as I can tell everything to Mr. Parks, I know I’m going to be ok. He is the only person that understands my words and pain, that’s why I always write him a letter. Lisa should have her own Mr. Parks or Mrs. Devil. If she had one of those, she’ll probably stop getting in trouble and always force me to pick her up from school.
Day 10- August 31, 2011:
Hello Parks, we meet again. I am upset on what happened today, or I could’ve been. Let me spare you the details. As I was on my way home from work, this little sister of mine had the nerve to be inside of my car asleep. She claimed that while she was in my car, she screamed and that she was being kidnapped while I was at work. It is the middle of the week and I have to deal with this. I questioned her on why she wasn’t at school; she boldly said, “If I went to school looking like this, somebody like you probably would’ve gotten questioned by the police.” The “what the hell” face appeared again, but this time my ears wiggled. I knew when my butt was in pain during lunchtime, it wasn’t just a coincidence. I wondered how my parents would’ve handled this when they were alive.
Somebody had to have given this little girl soda or something at that school because this is not going so well. I feel like sometimes I should tell her what’s really going on and why she hasn’t heard from her parents ten days ago. Sometimes I feel so guilty for not telling her. I will tell at the right time.
Day 15- September 5, 2011:
Am I crazy because I have a journal named Mr. Parks? I don’t think I am. Of course Lisa had a problem with this since she’s the significant person that I talk about in this journal that I got from mom. Anyway I introduced her to my girlfriend, Seraphina, and Lisa looked lost and confused. She asked me “Is that my new mom?” I am so surprised that it took her this long to realize that she still hasn’t even seen her mother.
I told her “no, Seraphina will just be a friend to you and I hope both of you will get along just well, and for the love of God, don’t mess this up for me.” I told her straight up like a man that I technically am. I got a gut feeling that Lisa is going to do something to mess this up because I mean come on, all the things that she’s been doing is crazy. She’s crazy. She’s crazy. She is so damn crazy. I should calm down though; she hasn’t really done anything yet. I’m actually shocked and proud of Seraphina for dealing with Lisa. But when they start spending more time together, that’s when I got to pray to God that Lisa doesn’t burn her dress or whatever is on her devil mind.
Wow, Lisa was a very sweet little girl before I went to college. The day before I left for college, I had made her cookies and milk and told her that no matter what happens around the world, especially this neighborhood; “I’m always going to be there because I’m never a square.” She had always laughed whenever I mention the square part, even though I knew it was corny as hell; I just picked that quote from a movie. What happened to her though? I think it’s this damn neighborhood that changed this innocent little girl to a menace to society. I may be over exaggerating but nine-year-old Lisa has horns while four-year-old Lisa had wings and a halo over her head.
I told her “no, Seraphina will just be a friend to you and I hope both of you will get along just well, and for the love of God, don’t mess this up for me.” I told her straight up like a man that I technically am. I got a gut feeling that Lisa is going to do something to mess this up because I mean come on, all the things that she’s been doing is crazy. She’s crazy. She’s crazy. She is so damn crazy. I should calm down though; she hasn’t really done anything yet. I’m actually shocked and proud of Seraphina for dealing with Lisa. But when they start spending more time together, that’s when I got to pray to God that Lisa doesn’t burn her dress or whatever is on her devil mind.
Wow, Lisa was a very sweet little girl before I went to college. The day before I left for college, I had made her cookies and milk and told her that no matter what happens around the world, especially this neighborhood; “I’m always going to be there because I’m never a square.” She had always laughed whenever I mention the square part, even though I knew it was corny as hell; I just picked that quote from a movie. What happened to her though? I think it’s this damn neighborhood that changed this innocent little girl to a menace to society. I may be over exaggerating but nine-year-old Lisa has horns while four-year-old Lisa had wings and a halo over her head.
Damn today was a cold day, and summer isn’t technically over yet.
Day 21- September 11, 2011:
I usually write to you Mr. Parks every five days, but today was different; it was my parents’ funeral and Lisa was asleep throughout the event. Now let’s think about this for a second Mr. Parks, Lisa still doesn’t know yet about our parents death, and the funeral was today, so how does this all work out you might ask? Well funny story happened yesterday. It was a pretty cold day, so Seraphina and I stayed at my house watching a movie on my 40-inch HD television, which I currently cannot stop bragging about to my friends, and it was such a great night at the time that I thought nothing could spoil this moment. I already put Lisa to sleep, or so I thought, and after Seraphina and I were knocked out on the couch, Lisa had a “wonderful” idea to make chili for us, but this was not for eating though. Before I was able to wake up, I had a nice dream that it was raining Sprite remix, but at the end of the dream, I couldn’t get up off my chair inside the building since my butt was nailed to the chair for some reason.
Day 21- September 11, 2011:
I usually write to you Mr. Parks every five days, but today was different; it was my parents’ funeral and Lisa was asleep throughout the event. Now let’s think about this for a second Mr. Parks, Lisa still doesn’t know yet about our parents death, and the funeral was today, so how does this all work out you might ask? Well funny story happened yesterday. It was a pretty cold day, so Seraphina and I stayed at my house watching a movie on my 40-inch HD television, which I currently cannot stop bragging about to my friends, and it was such a great night at the time that I thought nothing could spoil this moment. I already put Lisa to sleep, or so I thought, and after Seraphina and I were knocked out on the couch, Lisa had a “wonderful” idea to make chili for us, but this was not for eating though. Before I was able to wake up, I had a nice dream that it was raining Sprite remix, but at the end of the dream, I couldn’t get up off my chair inside the building since my butt was nailed to the chair for some reason.
Anyway, around 2:15 A.M., Lisa poured the hot-ass chili on us and it was so damn hot. The chili touched my eye and my chest. My heart was beating so damn much with the shock of the chili and the anger of my sister. Seraphina went straight to the bathroom with chili on her leg, scalping her skin. That was some old bullshit. I can’t believe she did that to me and Seraphina and I can’t believe that Seraphina stayed after what happened. She’s a keeper. Nonetheless, it is difficult to not forget the conversation I had with Lisa in the kitchen.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” I said while wiping chili off of my chest.
“That was funny, y’all both should’ve seen y’all face when threw the chili on you” she replied.
“Oh you thought that was funny? We were sleeping and this is what you would do to us. What if I did that to you while you were sleeping?”
“It never happened and if it does I’m telling mom.” After saying that I knew what I had to do.
“Get your ass over here right now!”
“No, no leave me alone Jackson!”
“I’m not playing right now, get over here,” I said while I was gritting my teeth.
Around 2:54 A.M., she started to run away from me, which made me even more pissed off at her, since I had to chase the girl. She ran from the living room, into the bathroom and I caught her there. I spanked her with a belt and she was crying for mom and dad and they were the only people that were on my mind that time. After I was done spanking her, I sent to her room and she was so angry throughout the night that she didn’t even sleep.
That is the reason why I couldn’t even write my journal yesterday and why she wasn’t even awake throughout the funeral. Seraphina is a Godsend by the way.
I was carrying a sleeping Lisa throughout the funeral, which didn’t last that long anyway. I feel so angry and sorry that Lisa still doesn’t know. People were staring at me and it was difficult to make it through the day.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” I said while wiping chili off of my chest.
“That was funny, y’all both should’ve seen y’all face when threw the chili on you” she replied.
“Oh you thought that was funny? We were sleeping and this is what you would do to us. What if I did that to you while you were sleeping?”
“It never happened and if it does I’m telling mom.” After saying that I knew what I had to do.
“Get your ass over here right now!”
“No, no leave me alone Jackson!”
“I’m not playing right now, get over here,” I said while I was gritting my teeth.
Around 2:54 A.M., she started to run away from me, which made me even more pissed off at her, since I had to chase the girl. She ran from the living room, into the bathroom and I caught her there. I spanked her with a belt and she was crying for mom and dad and they were the only people that were on my mind that time. After I was done spanking her, I sent to her room and she was so angry throughout the night that she didn’t even sleep.
That is the reason why I couldn’t even write my journal yesterday and why she wasn’t even awake throughout the funeral. Seraphina is a Godsend by the way.
I was carrying a sleeping Lisa throughout the funeral, which didn’t last that long anyway. I feel so angry and sorry that Lisa still doesn’t know. People were staring at me and it was difficult to make it through the day.
Day 25- September 15, 2011:
There has not been a day in which I mentioned in my journal how my workday was to Mr. Parks. Today is no different. Sometimes I feel like a lost a sister and gained a huge burden. But after what happened a few days ago, I think Lisa finally found out what happened, without me telling her.
She left the house by herself and went to a beauty salon a couple blocks down. She told me “I saw my friend with her mom at the salon, and she paid the manager money for her hair. I’ve been thinking about mom lately and also dad and I haven’t seen them for a lot of days now. I think they’re gone.”
I’ve never shed a tear in front of my sister until now. I said, “I’m sorry they are gone, they’ve been gone 24 days ago. I wanted to tell you sooner but it was so hard, especially what happened a few days ago. Are you ok?”
Tears and snot were around Lisa’s face and it was difficult for her to talk to me.
“24 days ago, I threw chili on mom and dad while they were asleep and I...” Lisa couldn’t even finish her sentence. “I, I, I, think I killed them with the chili.”
I was speechless when she said that. I don’t know if I can forgive her right now at this moment. My God. Wow. I can’t believe that it all adds up. I couldn’t even look at her after that, and I still can’t. Mr. Parks I’m am so stressed out.
She left the house by herself and went to a beauty salon a couple blocks down. She told me “I saw my friend with her mom at the salon, and she paid the manager money for her hair. I’ve been thinking about mom lately and also dad and I haven’t seen them for a lot of days now. I think they’re gone.”
I’ve never shed a tear in front of my sister until now. I said, “I’m sorry they are gone, they’ve been gone 24 days ago. I wanted to tell you sooner but it was so hard, especially what happened a few days ago. Are you ok?”
Tears and snot were around Lisa’s face and it was difficult for her to talk to me.
“24 days ago, I threw chili on mom and dad while they were asleep and I...” Lisa couldn’t even finish her sentence. “I, I, I, think I killed them with the chili.”
I was speechless when she said that. I don’t know if I can forgive her right now at this moment. My God. Wow. I can’t believe that it all adds up. I couldn’t even look at her after that, and I still can’t. Mr. Parks I’m am so stressed out.
Day 29- September 19, 2011
Who is Mr. Parks? Anyway, I’m Lisa, and I am nine years old. I read a lot of what my brother had to say about me and what happened in these past few weeks with my parents’ death and me not knowing that they even died. Jackson kept this a secret from me, yet I accidently killed mommy and daddy.
My best friend Eve came to my house with fifty dollars that didn’t belong to her and taught me how to make chili and she left the bowl on the kitchen while mom and dad were sleeping in their bedroom. She bet me fifty dollars that I wouldn’t throw the chili on mom and dad. At first I didn’t want to do it, but I wanted the fifty dollars. As I was walking very slowly to their room with the wood of the floor creaking every time I would walk, I went into their room, threw the chili on them, and ran out of the house with Eve. We ran three blocks down away from the house. While I was running, all I heard were my parents screaming for help.
I don’t want to feel like this forever. I’ve disappointed my older brother who hates me, and I killed my parents. It’s time for me to go and see my parents so I can apologize to them for what I did.
Jackson, I’m sorry for all the things that I did to you and the family. No matter what, I’m always going to love you older brother.
Day 30- September 20, 2011
I’ve lost my younger and only sister. I didn’t think she’ll do this. I didn’t want her to think that I hated her so much that she’ll do this. I am not going be the same ever again. I’m crying now just writing this. I love my sister so much despite all the shit that she did.
I’ve come to the conclusion that this will be my last message to you Mr. Parks because you’re nothing but bad luck to my family. My mother gave me you, and then my sister wrote on this, this is not worth it. I bought gas and a lightning match, not for me, but to end this nightmare named Mr. Parks. I love my family, and I will start a family with my Seraphina. Go to hell Mr. Parks.
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